Billie Eilish: Same Interview, The Eighth Year | Vanity Fair

Once again, like it happens every year, I thought I had more time.

And then it's October 18th.

Again.

My name is Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

I'm Billie Eilish.

I'm looking at all the frozen years past.

Love you all.

I'm Billie Eilish.

I think it's October 18th.

It's October 18th.

October 18th.

I'm 15.

16.

17.

18.

19.

20.

21.

I'm 22.

This is the first year in my life that I keep forgetting how old I am.

257,000.

6.3 million.

40.7.

67.5.

94.1 million followers.

106.

About 110.

120 million?

Another year.

Seven years.

This is the eighth video, right?

But it was seven years ago today that we started this.

We didn't put out a video last year.

It's true.

It was a big, big year.

Just the whole Barbie thing.

Swarm.

Tour.

I finally played Brazil.

I finally played Brazil.

Labyrinth.

Yep.

Live at the O2.

Yeah.

Coachella.

Bad guy.

Went diamond.

I'm back on my bullshit.

I want to do more.

What does that mean?

I want to do more.

Wow.

Why was I yelling?

I've spent a lot of time in the last summer looking at videos and photos from this month.

Since then, so much has happened.

It's nonsense.

I have the most monthly listeners right on Spotify in the entire world.

So I surpassed a hundred million monthly listeners and then now I am the most streamed artist in the world on Spotify.

I released my album, went on tour again.

I made so many new friends, adopted another dog.

It's been a friendship filled year.

I and Phineas won an Oscar for, what was I made for?

I can't even really describe how amazing that was.

And then it was like, we were the youngest people in history to win two or something crazy.

Ooh.

Did I predict it?

Am I going to win the Oscar?

I don't know.

We're manifesting, but we're also not going to be disappointed and angry if I don't.

And I do think objectively, it is one of the best songs I've ever made.

I don't, I think it's crazy that we would win again.

Again.

Yeah.

I kind of can't believe that happened again.

I feel proud of it and I'm, I'm proud to have made it, proud that it is of me.

Want to rescue some horses, maybe skydive, like a bungee jump off a, off a cliff or something.

I really want to do stuff like that, things that I could die because of.

I want to adventure so bad.

I do want to skydive, haven't done that yet, be doing racing, be doing stunt driving.

I definitely want some more piercings.

I want some more tattoos, another dog, be hanging out with your family, be making new friends, be having new friends, be having good sex.

Got there.

I've done nothing but make friends all year and, and gotten so close with people that I wasn't with before and became friends with people I used to be friends with again.

And just like, it's just been a year filled with friendship, which honestly, even though I was saying a lot of things that I want to do, that was the real, that was like the thing that I wanted to do.

And I really did it and it was awesome.

And yes, I've had a lot of good sex, so you're welcome, Billie.

I want you to have fixed the little chip.

You can see it.

2018 did it to me.

And when I'm smiling, my tooth is so ugly.

Whiten those suckers.

Oh my God.

I'll let, have you know, Ms. Red Hair, that I chipped another tooth.

So not only did I not fix the other chip, but I also chipped another one.

So now I have a chip here and a chip here.

I also remember really wanting me at that time to fix this little gap as well.

And I'm in the process, okay?

God.

Hopefully, you keep doing what you're doing.

Cause I hope that what you're doing is good.

Don't do that thing again, where you just do what somebody else wants to do.

We're not going to let somebody take away my sparkle, as they say.

Solid advice.

And I haven't done that.

That really has stuck in my head.

And I think that I used to pretend like I was doing that.

But I think since then, I really have been doing that.

And I don't, I'm, I'm really, I really trust myself.

And I think like, especially that 2022 girl, I don't think like I trusted her.

So I really trust myself now and I'm not going to let any of that stuff happen again.

And it hasn't happened again.

And I've been very cautious about that.

And it's always scary when you, you know, fall in love or you're, you know, seeing someone or you like someone or whatever it is.

And it's hard to know what the hell is going on.

Cause you're kind of blinded by this like curtain of like, you know, lust and love and admiration.

So I was very cautious and have been cautious.

I'm currently cautious.

And I've been really a good girl.

So not disappointing you.

I promise.

Brockhampton.

Tierra Whack.

Techno.

Arlo Parks.

The Doe.

Cake.

The Cardigans.

Dora.

You Know Who.

And then also me.

Deftones.

A lot of Deftones.

Mazzy Star.

This album called Sunburn by Dominic Fyke.

Honestly, I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga.

Like old Lady Gaga.

It's so good.

Alejandro.

And Poker Face.

And GUI.

And Born This Way.

Fruitvale Station.

Eye Origins.

Ferris Bueller's Day Off is a solid choice.

Sicario.

That shit is fire.

Furtvale Station.

That movie's fucking fire though.

It's a great movie.

But.

Secretary.

I feel really good about it.

I think we're like 85% done.

Maybe 90.

It's very genuinely like what I wanted to make.

I think.

It's true.

Like it was just such a drag.

It was so punishing.

But I feel like it is the best thing that I've.

Phineas and I have ever made.

And I'm so endlessly proud of it.

Like you don't even know.

I used to have this feeling with my music.

Like I liked it.

But I was kind of embarrassed for people that I thought were cool to listen to it.

Like anytime somebody that I thought was really cool said they listened to my song I'd get all embarrassed and nervous and kind of frustrated and annoyed honestly.

I'd be like no.

Don't listen to that.

Like that's private.

And I think I wasn't as proud of it.

And I think that now in my life and where I am in my career.

I really stand for my music.

Like I feel really proud of it.

There's this one song called Lunch that I think people might like a lot.

There's a song called Birds of a Feather.

Damn I'm giving you titles.

Whoa.

My prediction then that I don't know why I didn't even say.

But it was what I was thinking then was.

I thought Lunch would be the hit.

But I also remember being like.

But watch Birds of a Feather is going to end up being the real hit.

Lunch was like big when this album came out.

And then Birds.

Birds is number one.

Lowest point of the year was probably.

In January I had a meeting with like my managers and stuff.

They were showing me the schedule for the whole year.

And I sat there and was totally silent and totally still.

And just tears like just streamed down my face.

That was a horrible.

A horrible day.

Gosh.

I mean you know.

I was like.

I had just turned 17.

And.

Life was seeming very daunting.

And ended up being even.

More intense than I ever cried about.

I.

If I had really known how it would all go.

I would have been.

I would have been.

Balling my eyes out for.

Days.

But also.

I would have been excited at the same time.

The reason I was crying.

In that story.

Is because I was looking at.

My touring schedule.

And it was like.

You know it's horrifying to see.

Your life planned out like that.

Two years in advance.

It's like.

Especially for like a little girl.

I wish that I hadn't had to.

Deal with that.

But also like.

My life's fucking awesome.

And I.

I'm really.

I'm really lucky.

At the same time.

Touring.

Used to be something.

That.

Was.

Extremely.

Unpleasant.

And I would dread it.

And I would only dread it.

And.

The only reason I.

You know.

Did it at all.

Was because I love performing.

And I always have.

And even when I dreaded those tours.

And.

You know.

Hated the whole process.

I loved performing.

At the end of the day.

I had this moment.

Like a year ago.

Or two.

A year ago.

I think.

Where.

I was kind of like.

Touring is.

Doesn't have to be miserable.

And I don't have to just.

Sit through it.

And take it.

I can make it fun.

I mean.

I'm the fucking boss.

For God's sake.

And.

I.

Sat down.

With my.

Touring team.

And I was like.

Let's figure out.

All the ways.

To make this fun.

Because.

This is my job.

And it's my life.

And I want to keep doing it.

And I don't want to.

You know.

Be so.

Tortured by it.

That I end up.

Never doing it again.

Because I'm.

Resentful of.

You know.

Surrounding.

That is.

Just like.

Joyous.

And filled.

Laughter.

And love.

And.

For the first time.

In my life.

Once again.

I'm.

The words.

Are coming out of my mouth.

That are.

I wish this tour.

Would never end.

And.

Oh.

I do have a concert tonight.

Yeah.

And I had one last night.

And the night before that.

And tomorrow.

I'm on SNL.

Three show nights in a row.

Is like.

A lot.

But.

It's okay.

It was at the crocodile.

In Seattle.

And it was like.

500.

I think.

Was that me saying.

That was my biggest show.

Wow.

Uh.

It's impossible to try to.

You know.

Take in.

And acknowledge.

Even.

I mean.

It's.

It's so.

I can't really think about it.

Too much.

Because.

It'll make me cry.

And then it'll also give me.

An existential.

Crisis.

But.

I can't.

Believe.

The way.

My life has gone.

And where it is now.

I mean.

It's just like.

The craziest.

Thing in the world.

No one.

You listeners.

Don't understand.

How unpleasant it is.

To collaborate with people.

It is not a fun experience.

The back to back.

Ah.

I mean.

It's Charlie though.

But it's Charlie.

Also like.

Charlie and I.

Did this collab.

In like.

The greatest way possible.

Like.

My ideal way.

Where.

You know.

She put out.

Her amazing album.

Guess was.

On the extended version.

And.

I heard it.

Cause somebody.

Posted it.

Because it came out.

And I remember being like.

Hot.

Wow.

Such a hot song.

Wow.

That's such a good song.

God.

I wish I had a song like that.

And I just went on with my life.

And then.

Like.

Weeks later.

Phineas went to her show.

He was talking with like.

Her.

And like.

One of her team mates.

Or something.

I don't even know.

Who he was talking to.

And.

They just talked about like.

You know.

Ah.

Would Billy be down.

You know.

We should do a.

Billy should hop on something.

And.

Like.

Had a call with her.

Talked about it.

It was gonna be another song.

And then.

We decided on Guess.

And then like.

She sent us stems.

Phineas and I.

Went on a hike.

Came back.

Went into the studio.

Sat there.

Played the song.

Wrote a verse.

Sent it back.

That's my dream.

That's my dream.

Phineas came up with like.

The first line being.

Don't have to guess.

The color of your underwear.

And then I was like.

Okay.

Period.

And then we both just sat there.

Twiddling our thumbs.

Writing.

And then.

Wrote that verse.

Sent it back.

She sent something back.

For her.

I sent something back.

For her.

And then.

We literally shot a video.

Like.

Two days later.

And then.

The video got edited.

The next day.

And it came out.

Like.

The next day.

It was the craziest.

Fastest.

Like.

That is the dream.

That is the fucking dream.

Anyway.

It's a picture of me.

And Charlie XCX.

And it has.

69,608 likes.

Oh my god.

So cute.

So innocent.

And just excited about everything.

Wow.

That's so funny.

Full circle.

Huh?

Any person that I have ever been around.

I'm dating.

It's so crazy.

Literally any man that I am near.

It's like.

That's.

That's Billie's boyfriend.

And that's the person she's dating.

It's crazy.

And then it's weird.

Because.

I'm like.

Actually photographed more.

With women.

And way.

Way more incriminating photos.

Of me with women.

Than men.

And they're like.

Billie and her best friend.

It's really funny.

It's so weird.

I'll see you next time.

And the time after that.

And the time after that.

Tell I'm an old lady.

Speaking of old ladies.

Mom.

This is my mom.

She is sick as a booty.

I don't mind.

I can stay here that long.

I love you.

I love you too.

Hello baby.

His grandma.

I love you Billy.

Mommy.

Come Heather.

Hi.

I love you so much.

I love you very much.

Mother.

Join me again.

That was a lot.

New hair.

Hi.

Hi.

She's back.

We're back.

Hi mom.

Hi precious.

Isn't she so pretty.

I love you.

I love you so much.

I love you so much.

I love you so much.

You're sweet.

Seven years to the day mom.

Oh my gosh.

And we were in New York.

Remember?

Oh my gosh.

On the first one.

Yeah.

That was crazy.

We never knew what was going to happen with it.

I know.

I just was saying it.

She's the one that helps me.

Have a brain and.

You know.

Use my platform for good and.

No.

Do all the things I need to do.

Yes.

I hope you have a very busy year.

What?

What?

With your album comes out and you have so much fun and you have such a fun year making videos and playing pickleball and cooking and not jumping off of things.

Dude I'm going to be.

You just have to accept I'm going to jump off stuff.

And you stay healthy.

I've been cooking.

You have been cooking.

I've actually been cooking.

I've been reading.

Good friends and you take good care of yourself and you laugh so much and you have so much fun and I love seeing it.

Love it.

I love you.

Look.

Oh my gosh.

Off to MSG.

We go.

Mwah.

Muah.

Huh huh huh huh huh.

Look me out.